Don't really know what I'm doing..

I'm not sure what to say or how to feel. The only thing I do know is that writing is all that I can think to do. I don't even know what to write about though. So we're just going to roll into this all at once... Today I had my annual with my gynecologist and let me tell you, I was waiting for the other shoe to drop. For the last week or two I've been waiting for them to tell me "Due to your weight, you developed endometrial cancer just like your mother" or due to the fact that my one boob has been hurting "Even though breast cancer isn't related to endometrial cancer, you in fact have breast cancer". How is it that at my age, I'm thinking that I will be diagnosed with cancer? Normal 25 year olds don't think like this! My doctor at least told me that I'm basically doing everything I can to make it so it doesn't happen. 

So, on to more important things I guess. Mom went to Roswell on Wednesday and the doctor said that we're able to get into the drug trial, as long as the insurance covers it. She said someone would call us in a few days. I guess the lady called my mom today and told her that the insurance will cover it, but she needed to call the pharmacy people to find out how much the co-pay would cost. Well, apparently the one pill, for a 3 month supply would cost around $11. The second pill for a ONE month supply would cost about 2,000. Yes! You read that correctly! TWO GRAND!! HOW?! HOW ARE WE SUPPOSED TO MANAGE THAT?! She doesn't work and I only work part time! And I barely make more than minimum wage. Ugh. This is ridiculous. I feel like I can lose her at any moment! I hate cancer. And I hate the ridiculous amount that pharmaceutical companies charge. Ugh.